There is something in the air...something has changed. I wish I could say that I can't really put my finger on it but I can, but I know what is causing the change. We are suddenly holding on a few seconds longer when we hug. Staying up a few minutes later to talk. Laughing even harder when Toddler D does something funny and adorable.
Change is coming. It can be a really scary thing, especially this kind of change. You never know what is going to happen, you just know that things are going to be different and probably harder. I would love to say that it is going to be different good, but this kind of different is never good. However, we will do our best to make sure that it isn't a bad kind of different (for Toddler D's sake and our own).
The thing I don't like about the change that is coming is all the uncertainty. Not know what is going to happen, when the phone will ring, if I am going to get that dreaded visit at my doorstep. Here are a few of the things I do like (at least in theory): what doesn't kill you makes you stronger - we are about to be as strong as diamonds, each moment is going to be that much more special and important, and I honestly can't think of any more than that. I would say I am excited about the sewing time, but I'm not, I would giveaway my sewing machine if it meant that this change didn't have to happen.
It is coming though and we are preparing. We each have our own ways, I am past the denial stage and entering acceptance. Time to put my big girl panties on and deal with it!
